What is it that you really want?

     I haven't been writing much... blogging or on my book; I need to change that. Life is too short to not have at least ONE big accomplishment! My mind is stirring a lot lately. I have been "under going" a lot of stress lately. I'm not the best one to deal with stress; who is though? right? I'm a very head strong person but my body does not take stress well, at all. Not sure if I should thank my mom or my dad for that one! 

     Isn't is crazy how life can change so quick?! One little.. or big thing, can change everything! You never know when that thing will happen.... I ask myself "what is it that you really want?". What IS it that you want? What do you want out of life? Have you made choices that have forced you into a corner? Choices that have forever effected another person? Have you made your life what you really want it to be? Are you happy? Are you truly happy? Are there things that you think about on a regular basis? Or you think "if I could just get/do.... I would have... or I would do....?" 

     The phrase "life is too short" keeps coming back to me! It's so true! I remember like it was yesterday graduating from high school and how sad I was that I was moving on to the next stage of my life... and that was over 10yrs ago! 10yrs have passed by like a blink of an eye! I have a sister who will be 26 this year!!! 26!!! *I* have a 26yr old sister!! I remember like it was yesterday how we used to play school after we got home from school! (who exactly wants to leave all day of school.... to come home to do more school?! Leave it to us Miller girls!!! lol. We're kind of known for making everything fun!)

     Life really is too short... Especially too short not to be HAPPY. Tread through water.... Struggle financially for a while, but make your life what you really want! Make changes so you're happy! There is nothing better than the feeling of real happiness! 

"Not Afraid Of Life"

     It was 5am when I woke up today.... Have I ever mentioned how I'm not so much a morning person? I haven't been up this early in.... I can't even remember how long! I thought stopping at Starbucks and getting an extra shot would fix this lack of sleep! Coffee is gone, and I'm still dragging. I'm finding no amount of coffee can replace sleep! 

     With that being said, I'm actually feeling pretty motivated today. I have lots of work to do, but my mind is wondering to my life... all the craziness... and where I want to be. The thought that I am almost 30 keeps coming back to me. I will be 30 in a little over 3 months! I always have that thought "when I get older....", I am older now!! It's time to start living! No more waiting, putting things off, it's time to make it happen! 

     Sarah Palin's daughter Bristol was recently on Good Morning America for her biography!; "Not afraid of life". I only got to read a few lines from it, I think I will have to buy it! It got me excited! It really brought me back to my book... and finishing it! I'm really thinking of a day that I can take off and just go some where relaxing and just write. I have to reach  my goal!!!!

transformation

     Transformation! The word means-- A thorough or dramatic change in form or appearance. Transformation is what is what my life is undergoing this week. I need to revamp and refocus. It's so easy to get distracted from your goals sometimes. I want to take this week to really seek after my goals and the things that make me happy. 
     I am kind of disappointed in myself; I was looking over my goals for 2011 since we are at the middle mark! (crazy this year has is already half over, right?!) and I am not where I wanted to be. I wanted to have more school finished for one. I feel like my life is so busy and I'm nonstop running, but that's no excuse. You have to realize what your priorities are and MAKE time! So this is my oath to myself for this week. I am going to MAKE TIME to do study and I'm going to finish school this year!!! No matter what I have to give up, I'm going to do this!!! 
    

Camping for the weekend!

     AH! Today is Wednesday already! In some ways it seems like it should be Monday and others I'm wondering where the week has gone. I feel like I've gotten a lot done lately. It's a great feeling, even though you feel tired!

     Me and bf bought a camper recently. (2 weeks ago to be exact!) It's so much fun! We got a great deal on it, and plates were only $16! Whoo hoo! What now days, is cheap!? We took  it out this past weekend (over Memorial Day) for the first time to try it out! We went to D & W Lake and RV Park here in North Champaign. I think I had been there one time before, maybe when I was younger, but didn't have a clear remembrance of anything, but anyway, it was a really nice place to go! It was a great place to try it out before we take for a real trip out of state! Yah! 
    
 I love to go fishing but I find myself fishing like once every few years! I really hope with having such a love for the outdoors and camping, and now that we bought a camper that I will be able to do that more! It's fun! I caught a fish!! I think we caught 10+!  Mitch decided to leave his pole and chair out ALL night and was excited to see he caught a fish while sleeping! haha! I really want to research catfish bait and also how to prepare them! I think it would be so cool to be able to prepare and eat a fish I caught! <check> added to my "bucket list"! 


      Another favorite part of camping is definitely FOOD! I would have to say that I eat WAY MORE food when we are camping than I do any other day... plus some! I love to cook anyway... and I have to say that Mitch definitely is an amazing cook (which I LOVE about him)! He takes the *craziest* things and throws them together as if he KNOWS it will just work and taste awesome! I can't think of a time, the whole time I have known him, that he has thrown anything random together and it's tasted bad!!! (I might hate him a little bit for this lol) We made kabobs! They were good! Scallops, steak, onions, peppers, zucchini and squash...grilled... YUM!