"It's the simple things in life we forget"

     Not only is this lyrics to a song by one of my most loved artist (Usher), it's a song that speaks to me. No one ever promised life would be easy (my mother reminds me of this often-thank you mom!) but it's what we take from it and what we make of it. I definitely haven't had the easiest life and I have been through things that I never dreamt or even had a thought cross my mind that I would go through. I'm so thankful that I am who I am and have been brought up the way I have, it's pulled me through and allowed me to be positive after some of the heart breaks I have endured. I've been able to learn from my mistakes and also helps others going through similar things. It may not relieve any pain that one is going through, but it helps to have the real understanding from someone that they can relate. I really feel for the people who go through something devastating in their life and never pull out of it. Remember all the simple things in life to be thankful for!
     It's a snowy freezing cold day here in IL. I had the thought of sleeping in today... that didn't happen! Went to the IL. game...so sad we lost!!! Mad too!!!! Those refs were horrrrible!!! I just think there has GOT TO BE something to prevent a ref who makes horrible calls to not ref the WHOLE GAME! We were  up almost 10pts at one time... and we ended up loosing! We played against OH state... they are #1, so I guess I'm not tooo upset they lost. At least it was to a #1 ranked team. And yaaaah to Tisdale's 3 pointers! (I could mention some things he did that weren't so awesome, but I like to stay positive and maybe I'm just a little biased =). So I was going to go back to bed when I got home... I can't sleep... I'm too overwhelmed! Have too much on my mind! I'm off to enjoy some wine, maybe shop a little.. and forget the rest =)

Out of my norm

     It's Tuesday night. Normally I blog at work, but I thought I would take some time out of my "free time" and blog... do something out of my norm. I like to change things up!

      I have been sick now/feeling really crappy for going on a week and a half. It's really irritating and frustrating to feel so bad and not have a reason why. I always want to know "why". I can imagine I was one of those kids when I was younger that would ask my mom/dad "why"... they explain to me and I respond with another "why". Haha. I have kind of been that way my whole life. I don't just want to know.. I want to know why as well, or it just doesn't make sense. As you can imagine I have had a lot of hard times in my life... not only because of the situation I was going through, but because I didn't have a "why". It's a continuous struggle!

     Since I have been feeling so sick I have had some time to watch some movies! Yeah for movies! I haven't fallen asleep in the last 3 I've watched!!! (if you are a close friend you will know why that's such a big deal! haha) I've seen "Black Swan", "Devil" and "Case 39". I don't want to write too much about all of these because I would be up all night writing and I need my beauty sleep! Let's just say "Black Swan" is a whole nother level of crazy ("f-ed up") movie! Wow, I didn't know what I was about to watch walking into the theatre that night! Granite I was with friends so it was all in fun! I'm glad I got to hang out with them, but could have gone with out seeing that movie lol. "Devil" was "OK". I wasn't really impressed. "Case 39" however I really liked! It kind of reminded me of "The Orphan" in some parts. It was really good though. It really gave me the chills and scared me at some points. It's worth watching if you like kind of creepy/scary movies.

     The IL game tonight was awesome!  They played against MI State (which I have come to like MI because that is where my sister and brother in law and family are from). They WON! Yeah! Final score was 71 to 62. There are conflicting stats stating what rank the teams are. (IL 23 and MI 17) Well at any rate they played really well and took the W; However I believe that they need to work on getting rebounds, not just defensively but offensively too! They lost many opportunities to raise the score by not rebounding! I have to say my favorite IL player is Tisdale!!! He seems to have his head in the game and loves the game and he's good!  Whoot Whoot to # 54!!! 

     On another note, I haven't made much progress on my book over the last week or so because of feeling so sick.. same with school. I hope that tomorrow things are going to take a turn for the better and I can get back on track and get some school done and write some more in my book.